Rant Rant Rant…

You know people ask me if I’m okay and most of the time I shrug it off and say yea sure, I’m fine, but honestly I’m not. Yea, so I’ve been a bit down lately and it doesn’t help that I’m having a killer month now, not even week, but month.

And I’m just tired of being the only one who does all the work, and then have some particular person rag off about me saying I don’t deserve to be head of the team, yea, just makes my day. If she thought she was so damned bloody good then why the fuck, yes I said fuck, why the fuck did You not step up to the plate, huh? Why did you not take up the post especially when I actually was quiet during that discussion hoping someone else would do the job but me, but nope, you just sit there and stare at me like all the other idiots in the team. And then you have the nerve to say that I keep the project info to myself when you don’t even attend meetings? Of all the bloody things you do that has to be the top of the stupidest thing.

Damn this really sucks, it does, it really really does. I don’t need this shit, especially from a girl with acrylic PINK nails.

And yes, I’m blogging in class, in case you’re wondering.

Well, but anyway, I’m not actually here to bitch about.. well.. the bitch, I’m here to bitch about the fact that I cannot do this anymore! Gah!!! *sigh.. If only I had 50 bucks every time I said that.. I realize I do that a lot, but my stupid principle and pride and ego always stop me from doing it, ironic isn’t it? Well, more like contradicting, I know.. Tell me about it. But another way to put it is just that I’m too damned stubborn, too damned stubborn to ever give up, too damned stubborn to not care, just too damned stubborn.

For once I’m gonna say this, I want to relinquish control, I want someone else to do the work, the heavy lifting when it comes to thinking and decision making. And be good at it! And not let things fall apart and let me pick up the pieces again, to be able to handle things and not need me to swoop in to save the day. Okay, I’m being overly dramatic, but come on, when am I never?

So this was a rant, yes I know, and so was the previous post, albeit that one was a whole lot longer, and that was a rant on different things entirely if you’d have paid attention and if you’re insulted well I apologize but that’s just the way I feel. As Darren puts it, if you don’t like it, go get your own blog.

“The part can never be well unless the whole is well.”


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